I’m happy to say that this transition away from social media has been with relative ease. That is to say, it’s been without drama. I’ve done week breaks here and there, I’ve even done a couple months off before – but there’s always been an anticipation to return. This time feels different; I don’t really feel like I’m missing out. I don’t even have the urge to go back.
I haven’t come to post words, though. Today I want to post a few pictures. I went out for a work “going-away” / “get together” last weekend. Despite the usual drag of going to work-related events, the boyfriend and I had a great time seeing everyone. Our office split up a few weeks ago, as people are moving away or moving to new offices, and it was nice to see everyone together in the same place. I didn’t get many photos, unfortunately, but here are the few that I did manage to snag:
Also, side-note, I’ve actually been carry my camera around with me somewhat often. In the past month, I’ve taken it out at least half a dozen times. I don’t think I’ve used my camera that much in the last 3 years. Woot, woot! More pictures to come!
I have to cut this post short though – it’s waaaaay past my bed time.
Again, as a reminder, I’m not posting daily for this project. The goal is to abstain from social media for 365 days and document my life and experiences as I slowly chug along. That being said, I hopefully will get another post out before the end of the weekend. Hopefully talking about some booooooooooooks. Annnnyyyyyways, long words mean I’m sleepy.
12 / 365
Public speaking is not a strong suit of mine and any time I speak, a chain of “uhm”s is certain to follow. Awkwardness is exaggerated when you place a camera in front of me. Then push me out onto the streets to film and you’ve got today’s video. Straight from downtown Charleston, South Carolina.
Earlier this week my dad and sister drove my car down across the US. When they arrived today, we ran downtown and explored as much as we could. Market Street, King Street, restaurants, cafes, and briefly to the College of Charleston. Anyways, go watch the video. I’ll post it here as soon as it’s finished uploading.
If you’ve never modeled in public for photos or video taped yourself walking down a crowded street, go do it. By getting yourself exposed to other people’s looks teaches you a lot about yourself. It teaches you to be aware when you’re nervous, shy, everything.
Eventually after holding my camera for long enough today, I got over how other people were reacting. It was as if I had broken through and it no longer mattered what other people thought of me. The attention I was getting was boosting my confidence because I knew I was introducing other people to something new.
It had some sort of a shock value – it made people come into the moment and acknowledge that something different was going on. “Hey, that weirdo is walking down the street talking to a camera”. Maybe it didn’t have an effect or anything, but I feel like I mixed some stuff up today.
So far, vlogging has been a pain and a lot of fun! I’m excited to continue to work on it for the next week and a few days!
I once read a quote that went something along the lines of “it was problem in which she could not run away from but could not confront”. Tonight I have these things blaring in my face but I feel helpless to react to them. Why do we become so mentally entangled in the small things, things which should easily be forgotten or made peace with?
My solace right now is getting my camera back next week. Photography has been a huge part of my life and it used to be my form of expression before blogging. Although I love words and I love speaking, I feel as though I am better expressed through images. There are just emotions that cannot be captured in words because they have to be interpreted by the individual. I will find peace there, when my expression is in a different form.