There’s only so much oxygen you can take in.
Time accumulates both wear and stress. It’s easy to neglect ourselves and to keep taking everything in. Life, like breath, is a cycle: we have to absorb our environments and we have to let go of them. We breath in, then we exhale. There are moments throughout our lives where all we can do is exhale. We’ve taken too much in and we choke on what we have. Our emotions build up and we can’t contain them.
We only choke when we’re not breathing properly. If we let go, we can take more in. Those moments when you want to forget the past, you’ve breathed all your air out. There isn’t any of the past in you anymore. Now that you’re out of oxygen, you must inhale or you will suffocate.
Life is a balance of these two extremes. I struggle with both letting go of the past and accepting what comes my way. This photo serves as a reminds that eventually I have to exhale: eventually I just have to let go.
I want to start by apologizing for another late night blog post. Instead of only writing about 100 words, I want to write a bit more tonight. Truth be told, this week has been full of unexpected pleasant surprises and business. While I wish I could say that my busyness was productive, I don’t have anything to show you for this week. Especially regarding this blog.
Earlier this week I wrote about taking the first photograph in a long time. It was a big deal because I used to take images daily. If I wasn’t out taking photos, I was talking with others who were. Time went on and I disconnected from the people I love. Artists don’t exist where I live, so it’s been a difficult transition. Taking an image this week pushed myself back into that community.
Yesterday I wrote about having exciting news. I don’t want to share any of it yet but I can’t wait until I can. Right now I’m working on many projects that I’ve held in my head. Actually putting them into existence is intoxicating.
Even though I only produced one new image this week, I’ve already felt a jolt back into the community. All of my projects revolve around either blogging or art. When I have the opportunity to work on them, I feel like I’m fulfilling a higher purpose. It feels like I’m doing what I’m supposed to be doing.
Work rolled by quickly this week and I found myself working on my projects with an abundant amount of time. The time that I was given felt productive. When you lay your head down at night, having those feelings of fulfillment is stellar. There’s nothing like feeling on top of the world.
Speaking of on top of the world, there’s a song I’ve fallen in love with. Yes, I’m late but I never knew the lyrics. To conclude tonight’s post I’ll write the lyrics below and connect it through Spotify. I hope you all had a wonderful week!
“I want to stand with you on a mountain.
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever.
Until the sky falls down on me”
-Truly Madly Deeply, Savage Garden
If you haven’t heard of Timothy Ferriss, you need to go read his brilliant books “The 4-Hour Workweek”, “The 4-Hour Body”, and “The 4-Hour Chef”. Each book is based on of Ben Franklin’s model of “Healthy, Wealthy, Wise”. They break down into experiments that Tim has conducted on himself and his friends. It ranges from living the life you’ve dreamed to how to catch a pigeon with your hands and cook it. During this 365 project I’ve written about concepts inspired by his books, especially “The 4-Hour Body”.
Recently, Tim has started sharing podcasts with friends. Each one is so unique that they’re difficult to explain. If you read any of his content, you’ll enjoy his talks. The one that’s below was his first podcast and the rest are available on his website http://thefourhourworkweek.com/
There are a lot of exciting things going on right now that I can’t wait to share them with all of you. All I can say right now is that I’m excited to be working with such inspiring people. Next month I’ll be sharing this work!
I’m also happy to report that I feel human again. There’s something unreal about working on what you love – and I neglected photography for too long. There’s a sudden clarity in my life that started when I took some images the other day. It’s like a torch was lit within my body and all I can think about is art. I know that this is what I want to do with my life and I want to spend the rest of my life in the art community.
I’ll write more next week!
Unfortunately tonight I lack an order to the words that are flowing through my head. I wish I could write more but I haven’t digested my thoughts yet. Days like today feel chaotic because I have so much emotion but I don’t have a way of letting it out. I’m not short on feelings but I can’t bring them to a line of text. There isn’t that organization to box how I feel right now. Waiting until I figure this all out will have to suffice. Don’t worry, I’m fine. I’m just trying to find myself and make sense of my life.
No this isn’t the beginning, and I hope that we are nowhere near the end. We’ll begin again right in the middle – where I am now.
It’s been almost a year since I’ve deliberately taken photographs. I neglected my livelihood for a very long time. Yesterday something electrified me and I knew I had to pull out my camera. The buttons felt so foreign, as if I had forgotten my hand. Looking through the view-finder and watching that timer blink filled my body with electricity I had long forgotten. Art is deep in bones and no matter how far I get away from the camera, I know that I’ll always return to it.
This image also represents all the places I want to go in my life. Each red arrow on that map is a place I’ve already gone. The purple and blue arrows indicate places that I still want to visit. With how much I’ve craved travel in the past few months, this image represents a lot to me. Traveling is a passion of mine and I will also be on the move.
This image was inspired by Joel Robison, who is a photographer I’ve looked up to for this past year. His work is endlessly inspiring and his blog is a fantastic read.
If you aren’t blogging, I don’t know what you’re doing. You are missing out on an incredible experience. Yes, I know that most blogs are boring but wait until you find one that really catches you. When you fall in love with a lesser known actor and discover that he’s been writing a blog for years. At that point you realize that it’s not the content you’re looking for. It’s the experience of the person – which is achievable through reading their blog.
When you discover an artist that produces beautiful work, you crave more. Their work is impressive to you but it only says so much about them. Finding a their blog gives you the opportunity to see their process. You have the opportunity to understand something that you otherwise couldn’t have known. You can learn about being an actor or a lower budget musician. Their writings give you a guide when you need it.
After you become accustomed to reading blogs, it’s difficult to go back. Twitter is only half of a paragraph and Facebook posts are often bemoaning. One day you’ll be scrolling through the internet and find an amazing artist. You’ll fall in love with everything they’ve produced. Low-and-behold they only have 15 pieces total online and there’s almost no information about them. Discontent isn’t an exact enough way to describe the emotion you feel when there’s only so much of a person.
That’s why I want you to blog. Take a moment everyday, or a couple of times a week, to write something. It doesn’t have to be a recount of your day or anything you don’t want it to be. Just find some time to fill a page with words. I know you don’t think you have them but you do. You won’t run out of them. Your creativity won’t stop. The world may not hear your voice or listen but it’s about filling that page out for yourself. It’s also about filling it out for that straggler who runs across your page. Maybe your words will connect with someone.