Coming Home to Myself

Tonight I took some time and delved deep into my Facebook timeline. I read through a lot of what I’ve posted through the years to compare myself to my younger self. Of course there is growth but it is interesting to see how my mind functioned so differently at a younger age. So many of my struggles were, in the end, petty. The things that I spent so much time stressing over were things that I shouldn’t have been stressing over. The fact that I’ve forgotten so many of them proves how little they’ve affected my life.

Much of the reason why I looked back was to see my sexuality. Facebook is not exactly the place to look back at that stuff but I wanted to see how much I wrote about my relationships and how open I was with other people. In the end I just noticed how many people have come and gone in my life. That is life though. I’ll be forever affected by their presence even without them.

This brings me back to today and what I’m going through. The things that I’m going through now and the struggles I encounter are only a fraction of my life. The relationships I had, while not forgotten, were mostly insignificant. I had an amazing group of friends! Some of them still are around these days! My friends Lindsay and April are at the forefront of this group.

When I move to Charleston, I’m starting another part of my life again. I’m going to a place where I will know nobody. The place will be foreign and I will have few people to guide me. The anxieties I have about this are enormous but I know that I will make it through. I will find some great people and have great experience – time shows that.

Unfortunately it’s getting extremely late and I should get some rest. I encourage you, reader, to sift back through your Facebook. See what you posted 3, 4, maybe even 5 years ago. You may be surprised at how your life is from how you expected it to be. Where will you orient yourself in the future? Who knows, only time will tell where you will end up!


P.S. I used to be huge into Alex Evan’s photography and I just ran into it again today! Man, it’s been like 4 or 5 years since I’ve seen his stuff! He’s definitely become an even greater photographer than I remember!


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