Sometimes blogging is the worst thing that I can do. Right now I feel absolutely horrible. Like a train ran me over and cut me in half, then another train came along and ran me over again. I’m frustrated with the lack of control I have in my life right now and the divisions that are happening. I’m excited to see where I’ll be taken in the next three years but I feel like I’m utterly wasting the time. All the communities that I was building up in my life last year, my aspirations, and my emotion health have been put off. If I could turn back now, I would. I would stop and change my directions. That’s all I can say without ranting endlessly tonight.